Alexis and I had a good weekend up in Monadnock with my friend John who was speaking at a youth retreat. John was my best man at my wedding last year! It was good to catch up with him and spend guy-time.
On Sunday evening, I was reflecting on some of the things I had processed with God over the weekend about my identity, my anger/bitterness issues, and this reckless life of His that I am pursuing. Here is my journal entry from that evening:
Sunday, 3/12/06, 6.45pm
I feel overwhelmed by the number of things/duties/tasks/goals/ambitions/desires/convictions/purposes for my life.
I feel tired and weary.
I feel burdened.
I feel like shutting down, going through the motions, the routine of life.
I feel
reckless.
I think the key risk to living with reckless passion is being unsure of your identity - without an understanding of who God is shaping you to be, your reckless passion will only last as long as the first reckless discouragement.